Sunday, October 21, 2012

辞职有这么难吗??

以前我在winet做不久的时候,因为政府有training for CCNA和CCNP的时候我就必须辞职。辞职时,我和我的上司两人面对面一边说一边哭。那时的我们已经哭了整整两天。之后我们就好好珍惜当前剩下的日子。我的上司以及我的manager以及一个同事一起出去吃东西。转眼间日子就这样的过去了。当时的我也离开了。。。当时的感想就是很开心的能够认识同事们一起开开心心的度过我notice的期间~~~training回来时就整整一年没有工作。人家介绍我去她的subsidary的公司做。当时的我只是做contract六个月而已。到期之前我就去找工。直到我找到工的前一天我的senior manager问我说老板要你做permanant,当时的我就不敢说出我已经找到工作了。。。我就说还是休息先。。。这次第三间的公司,到目前我已经做了两年了。是时候离开了。想不到我丢信到现在,已经有23天了,我的泪还是这样的留着不停。因为我的老板娘叫我给我的上司一次机会,叫我继续留下来。今天早上与同事吃早餐时,还听说老板娘告诉同事说我可以拿回信如果我要的话~~~我不是不要继续我只是因为已经找到工作了。。。我不跟老板娘说的原因是因为她说这样离开的话,将来不会找到像目前这样好的工作。。。她分明就是看不起我。。我了解她.她只是用错方式来表达她的心意。昨天我在听他的解释,我现在明白为什么她扣我的八块钱了。。。我心软的就是她说我的脾气跟她的儿子一样。更何况她的儿子跟我一样的就是他是独生子而我是独生女。。。她说我不应该这么冲动,她也说我不应该把她一起生气。她说XXXXX跟她不一样。怎么可以连她也一起生气呢???这也对啦。但是我也很生气她,因为她每次都side XXXXX的。不是我一个人感觉到罢了,我相信其他人也是赞成我讲的。。。她说每个人都会有mistake的。她问我难道你连一次机会都不给她吗???我很难回答她有两个原因。一就是我不管怎样也是要离开的。二就是我已经忍让XXXXX很多次了,机会也可算是已经超过三次了。这还不够吗???那还要我怎样???继续看她的脸色吗???这三间公司里,就是第三间才是我最难过又不舍得离开的一间~~~不知道要怎么办才好??? 现在的我已经迷失了方向,都不知所措,自己做了决定说要走的。最近感觉上“她”很不正常。就像星期五的时候,我只是在我的lunch hour出去后迟回来罢了,就闹到整个公司的同事们被骂。我在这里向你们说声道歉。我原本以为可以准时回到公司的,怎么知道在autocity的红绿灯有四辆的container,我就在那边等了两次的红灯。你们说啊没迟到才怪呢。。。唉。。。想不到“她”既然说我骗他。我就告诉他说我骗你也没有钱拿,干嘛骗你??我不想告诉你说我找到工是因为你看不起我,你说我以后不会找到工作的,所以我成全你。让你继续看不起我,因为我知道我已经是没有药救的家伙。其实,我舍不得你们(同事)。我因为有苦衷才离开的。我现在很喜欢我目前的工作,只是我不喜欢那个人。更何况我的想法跟她的想法不一样,这样下去是很难继续与她沟通的。所以我才选择离开。我相信我离开对大家也好。“她”一直以为我生气而丢信的。我也解释给她听了。但是“她”还是认为我是生气而丢信的。我就直接告诉他说:“我丢信并不是一两天的事。我已经考虑了这么久才做决定的。”如果我告诉她说:“我已经找到工作了,她会offer我起薪吗??还是她会很生气的骂我??”如果有的话,也许我还会考虑继续做下去。“她”明知我不是为了薪水而走的,为什么她不要问我的上司??总而言之,我还是带着难过的心情来度过我走之前的日子。

M2M - The Day You Went Away


Source: http://youtu.be/onAmmqUVh8o

M2M - The Day You Went Away Lyric

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming about you baby
You were dreaming of me

Call me crazy
Call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did I lose
My love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away

So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine

In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away

So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
The day you went away
The day you went away

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away

So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we've got till it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away

Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away
The day you went away
The day you went away